orange wednesday

it's raining hard as i type this. quite untimely when summer is just starting. when the sky turned orange during twilight, i knew that there's an impending rain ahead and i decided that orange will be the color of my day. happy bonding with parents (yellow) + a dash of chagrin (red) = orange.

we humans have the ability to send signals of annoyance towards one person and make that person feel as unimportant as, let's say, an insect. we also have the ability to read those signals and just veer away from that person so as not to initiate war and end up getting squished to the ground.

i went to novena mass today. one thing i prayed for is forgiveness for my selfish thoughts. but somehow, i still stand by my point. that if one's debt of gratitude (utang na loob) has been paid for many many many times, maybe the paying has to stop. especially when the favor is becoming mandatory that one has no choice but to do it. when they always rely on you to perform that particular task even if they can do on their own.

i finally went to see a doctor. thanks to the medical card the client gave us, i had the consultation and chest x-ray done for free. yay. as much as i want to do things independently, i asked my mom to go with me. one of the reasons is because i don't want to be soaking wet when the doctor sees me. the doc is ruling out bronchitis so i had chest x-ray done. good thing i anticipated that a lab exam will be done and i wore a plain shirt with no buttons so i didn't have to wear those dirty, smelly hospital robe.

i went home afterwards and had bonding time with my parents. i was the only one home that time and we had major kwentuhan and laughing moments. i spent the rest of the day off and had an afternoon walk in the park while my dad went jogging where i saw cooking herbs like basil, tarragon, and mint for sale at only 35 pesos each. i swear i'll be back to buy those 3 so that we'll have fresh herbs for our kitchen.

i realized that i already miss spending leisurely time like this with my parents (as in both of them) because i'm so blinded by the fact that i have to work and be with b all the time. from now on, i'll try to balance. time management is all i need.