torn

the family is planning to go to a relative's house so as much as i wanted to say yes to b's invitation for a date tonight, i can't help but feel guilty if i'm gonna make a plan of my own again.

i never liked moments like this. when i am torn between spending time with the family or with my b. though i know that i am old enough (too old actually) to always be tailing on family lakwatsa and that i can have a gimmick of my own, i can still feel the disgruntlement of some members of the family over the fact that they are not complete if ever i don't join them. ah, the hassles of being 28 and still single.

of course i've thought about tagging b along. but due to the recent family drama that happened about a month ago that almost led me to do the unacceptable, b's feelings towards the family somehow changed and it's been a little difficult to ask him to join family gatherings/trips.

oh well...i know it's going to be very soon that i'm going to leave the family roof and i won't feel guilty anymore.