our househelp took the weekend off so b and i have the house all to ourselves. i missed this, just the two of us. that's why i prepared an elaborate lunch of baked dory in lemon butter sauce + sauteed veggies. good thing that manong magbubuko passed by so we accompanied our meal with a refreshing buko shake that's perfect for today's hot summer weather.
b went to the office to do some general cleaning so i'm home alone. before he went out, we had this little argument over my backache. to be honest, this is killing me. not just the pain but the emotional distraught of why i'm having some health problems lately. although i want to go have a check-up to get these over with, there's just so much work lately that i don't wanna waste my time waiting in line for a doctor's appointment. looking for a good doctor is another thing. i have these experiences with doctors that somehow made me lose my trust in them. it's like when i think of doctors, they're like lawyers who would drain your pockets in the process and not even get the desired result in the end.
this is also the reason why i'm not ready to bear a child yet. well, aside from the fact that i'm still not longing for one, i'm afraid that these health issues might pose a risk on the baby and that's the last thing that i wanna happen. i hope that when God decides to give us the gift, my body will be free of these radicals that's causing all these pain and free of chemicals from the medicines (that is if i ever get around to having checked up), so that what will grow inside of me will be super healthy.
gah, the thoughts that come to mind when you're alone.
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